I Never Called You Dad

I never called you dad sometimes I wonder why

Things happened the way they did but I cannot hide

The way I feel about you even though words never expressed

The love that I have for you is genuine nonetheless

I wish things were different when I was coming of age

But I can’t change the past and it made me who I am today

I remember the fishing trips and how you would just stop in

Two or three times a week and I’d stay with you on the weekend

As a teenager I was really upset that you didn’t call me son

When you passed away I wanted to be alone and run

Away from it all so I didn’t come say goodbye

I know I probably should have but I think I was trying to deny

As I had been denied for all of those years

The dad that I should have had to help calm my fears

Of growing up in this world of despicable men

I’m sure it would have been easier if you had given in

And just let me love you the way I wanted to

As a dad and not just someone I knew

I do wish things were different but you know it’d be a thrill

To say I love you; always have; always will