Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Logging Camp

You never really had much of a childhood
Growing up in a logging camp chopping wood
You never played ball or went to school
You had to work to eat, that was the rule

Sometimes I feel like I had it rough
But I just think of you and that’s enough
To change my mind about my life as a child
Riding bikes, playing in the woods, running wild

I know it doesn’t sound like much ado
But I really appreciate all you went through
Everyone has a past a story to tell
And if we learn from them we are doing well

I have learned a great deal of life
Understanding your hardships and strife
Your words paint a picture of an adventurous kid
Who had a tough go at things and then

Without an education or discipline for
Raised a family on a carpenter’s dollar
If you could see now the seeds that you sowed
And see we have made it then you would know

That it is worth it every tear every mile
Filled with laughter, fear, heartache and smiles

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Gray Mountain

The mountain is gray and bare; its majesty lost
Soon covered with snow and tempest tossed
The storm now passed reveals its wake
Branches heavy, bending, breaking under its weight

Forgoing the silence of the night
A distant howl, a midnight call in the expanse of solemn snow
The sun now rises with blinding brilliance reflecting off the covered Earth
The snow melting and nourishing the new birth

Spring is in the air and flowers bloom
Color returns to the scope and view
Rewriting history and starting anew
Without a threat of pending doom

The seedlings grow and take root
On the mountain once forsook
The mountain is green and lush; its majesty regained
A sign to all who witness new life start again

Gray Mountain Colorized

Saturday, December 18, 2010

I Never Called You Dad

I never called you dad sometimes I wonder why
Things happened the way they did but I cannot hide
The way I feel about you even though words never expressed
The love that I have for you is genuine nonetheless

I wish things were different when I was coming of age
But I can’t change the past and it made me who I am today
I remember the fishing trips and how you would just stop in
Two or three times a week and I’d stay with you on the weekend

As a teenager I was really upset that you didn’t call me son
When you passed away I wanted to be alone and run
Away from it all so I didn’t come say goodbye
I know I probably should have but I think I was trying to deny

As I had been denied for all of those years
The dad that I should have had to help calm my fears
Of growing up in this world of despicable men
I’m sure it would have been easier if you had given in

And just let me love you the way I wanted to
As a dad and not just someone I knew
I do wish things were different but you know it’d be a thrill
To say I love you; always have; always will

Monday, December 13, 2010

Sing

I find myself limited, restrained
I start looking around to see who I can blame
But no one’s there; just me. How could it be?
I put myself in a box and threw away the key

I live my life trying to break free
From the imaginings and myths of normalcy
Trying to reconcile and circumvent the very thought
That I am here by choice; it’s my own fault

I glance past the wall that I built with care
And I dance around the corner; do I dare
I shout out loud and burst into song
Off key and out of tune; you should sing along

I am happy to sing with you ‘til you find your voice
It’s not about the sound but hearing without noise
Break down that wall; remove the façade
Encore, encore; your heart applauds

Now there you’ve got it, just give it a go
Invigorating, empowering; more than you know
There is only one thing that you must do
Pass the song along to someone like you

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Who Am I?

Who am I?
What will I leave behind?
When I am gone, will you remember me or know my cause?
I hope to make you think and give you pause

Time to reflect and to deliberate
Am I predestined? Is this my fate?
What are you up to? What are you about?
Are you living your life from within or without?

Be yourself with no hesitation
Proclaim to the world; every post; every station
No one can be me like me and I ain’t changing
To conform to a standard by proclamation

I don’t know how I will be remembered when my time it through
I don’t have the answers but one thing I know is true
I will be me and you should be you!

Thinking Of You Today

Thinking of you today
Heart so heavy words cannot say
I like to think I am past the tears
But then I realize my greatest fears

Being here without you; it’s been awhile
Since I’ve held your hand or seen your smile
I know that you are still with me each and every day
In the lessons and musings you taught along the way

I want you to know Mom, you were the best
It is comforting to know that you are at rest
It is hard to grasp that you are really gone
In a crowded room I can still feel alone

I am doing well; just thought I would say
Thinking of you today

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is a time to gather ‘round the table
To count your blessings and thank God you are able
To be here with family and all you hold dear
Momma we miss you, it’s that time of year

We think of you often and the way that you left
And how you loved us with every breath
We know you are well in your robe of white
But what would I give to see you tonight

To see you at the stove frying sweet potatoes
Or icing a cake you so lovingly made us
Calling on someone to help lift the turkey
With so much food you could never go hungry

Virginia is making her potato casserole
And Louise, of course, has her pumpkin rolls
Ann fixed up the carport so we could all fit
Bud will surely bring his prized bean dip

Pat will bring food and all the Cochran kin
I hope Rhonda and Donnie can make it in
Vickie is working but we’ll save her a place
Ricky will be here with a smile on his face

I will be here with the rest of the crowd
With the grands and great-grands it’s gonna get loud
We love and think of you with every dish
We are all here together just as you wish

Love you, Momma!

Tall Tall Trees

Life’s journey has many perils as if upon the sea
But I am safe among the Tall Tall Trees
Without an anchor hurled where rage may deem
But I am safe among the Tall Tall Trees

Adventure; the struggle to survive; to be free
But I am safe among the Tall Tall Trees
Sea calms; sun rises; smell the fragrant breeze
But I am safe among the Tall Tall Trees

Ship in the harbor protected from all that might be
But I am safe among the Tall Tall Trees
Captain and crew yield greatness from their life upon the sea
But not me I am safe among the Tall Tall Trees

Queen Pink Hair

Disillusioned, rejected, abandoned by his own
The flamboyant and fierce cannot be condoned
He makes us look bad when he’s seen on TV
Why can’t he be a little more like me?

Well, he isn’t you and that’s ok
He’s just being himself; what more can I say
He is independent and wondrously so
He is creative and crafty and doesn’t go with the flow

For him to try and fit in; it is a futile task
When even the most mundane is attacked
We are all freaks; even you in the business suit
So don’t write him off as just some fruit

We are all family short, tall, thin and fat
We are perfectly imperfect and I say to that
You are my brothers and sisters; true?
God loves me and he loves you too

You are important don’t ever forget
Go and tell the world, you ain’t seen nothing yet
Everyone has value; it is obvious to me
Even the Queen with pink hair and butterfly wings

Mother May I

Mother, may I have a chance at life
Yes you may without thinking twice
Mother, may I have the tools to grow
Food, shelter and love you know

Yes you may I love you dear
I want you happy and healthy and full of cheer
Mother, may I find my love
Yes you may, it is fair to love

To have someone beside you each step of the way
To live; to love and grow more fond of each day
Happiness, health, love and good cheer
I wish it all to you; just don’t be queer

Mother, may I die this day
I can’t bear to tell you; Mom, I’m gay
Whirlwind of emotion caused me to run
But you loved me out loud – your son

Now I live my life without regret
Knowing now the precedent set
The bonds were tested and love found true
I love you Mom, I do I do

Man On The Corner

Man on the corner, homeless and tired
Angry and frustrated with circumstances dire
He is not here by choice as some would imply
He feels degraded and broken to beg, steal and lie

His eyes wander and search for his next victim
An outstretched hand and a quivering lip his crime
He is dirty and he smells of urine and wine
Where is the Church for the needy and poor?

They are in the sanctuary comfortable and warm
Praising and worshiping with glory divine
A God who is faithful and just to forgive
Those who do nothing choosing only to live

For they and few others are worthy you see
To receive God’s blessing and peace for eternity
Why is it that when he’s passed on the street
We turn our heads so our eyes do not meet

He is God’s child and we should welcome him home
And surround him with love so he’s not alone
Forgive and forget is what the Good Book says
Will he forgive me before I’m dead?

Home

Home to me is more than a place
Home provides comfort like a warm embrace
Home is in the city up high in a loft
Or in the country with a meadow to cross

Home can be on a ship out to sea
For those protecting us from harm can’t you see
Home is in a cabin way back in the woods
Filled with memories, some bad; most good

Home has a cat a dog or a bird
Home is when you listen you hear more than just words
Each of us finds comfort in different ways and forms
So forget all you’ve read forget the norms

Love is the glue that fortifies a home
Shoring the buttress for coming storm
Home is for shelter both inside and out
Keeping safe without a doubt

Echos

Echoes from the day when along the Drover’s Road
Cattle, hogs and goats were lead to market to be sold
The past is ever before me with images and vivid prose
Things have changed so much now so that’s how it goes

I can’t imagine a day when I have to walk to work
To have to wash myself in the creek and sleep in the dirt
I am not ashamed of the past I just don’t want to repeat
Meals were hard to come by and you had to kill to eat

The voices of my ancestors still echo in my ear
Work hard, keep your nose clean and never fail a tear
Save your money for a rainy day and give to those in need
Charity starts at home you know, we are all family

Can’t never could do nothing so always try your best
You won’t always get it right but in the end you pass the test
These words I will remember how could I forget?
If I listen real close, I can still hear them yet

Echoes from the day when along the Drover’s Road
Cattle, hogs and goats were lead to market to be sold